This week we continue life lessons from the trail. Last week we talked about our external terrain and how our world sometimes shifts so we adjust and keep going.
This week We’re talking about our internal terrain. Similar to our external terrain our internal world can shift in small and large ways. Sometimes quite unexpectedly.
So some days on the trail I can do 2.6 miles no problem. I chug along at a normal pace able to finish in under an hour. We climb over rocks and up hills. We cruise over the smooth parts where the trail is more maintained.
Are there days I crawl along at a snails pace. I may be tired physically, mentally, or emotionally. I may not even know why I’m just not up to moving at the normal pace. There could be so many reasons but this much I’ve learned. Whether we’re talking about a trail or we're talking about life, sometimes internally our world just shifts. There’s no point sometimes in examining or trying to figure it out, it just is what it is.
Certainly by all means if there’s some sort of medical concern that needs to be addressed I’m not advocating self neglect. Quite the opposite, tune in and if there’s no obvious reasons such as not getting a good nights sleep then I know that’s why I’m not going at my normal pace. I accept that and move along, honoring my body where it’s at and move forward at whatever pace it wishes.
Other times I don’t know why, there is no exact cause. My feet might feel heavy, my legs may feel wobbly. Whatever. I’m just going at a slower pace. It’s not that I didn’t want to take the hike at all. Emotionally and mentally I’m in a better place in nature. I definitely want to be in the space where I’m at but just not up to physically going at the same pace.
Some days I can’t even drag myself to the woods. Or I might drive there and just sit, stare st the horizon and breath me the fresh air.
Do you know what? It’s totally OK. I may not be moving along at the normal or expected pace. It may not even be the pace I wish to be moving at. I may desire to be moving quicker but my feet just aren’t doing it. It’s OK to just honor your body where it’s at, to thank you for being alive, to keep breathing and just poking along at whatever pace it wishes. Some days what shows up is a bunny and I zip through the woods. Other days I show up like a snail and I just plug along one foot in front of the other. It’s ok either way. We get to the end of the trail and get on with the day.
So the point is wherever you’re at physically, mentally or emotionally, honor that place. There’s no shame in it at all. You’re still breathing and you’re still moving. Even if that moving is resting on the couch and the only thing moving is your lungs and your heart is still pumping. You’re still here and that’s huge. Honor your body, keep breathing. Tomorrow is another day. It may be the same, it may be better, it may be worse. It’s ok we’ll see when we get there. I’m the meantime keep going. Keep doing it. Even if you’re doing it ugly, keep doing it.
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